Tuesday, October 28, 2008
/ 11:57 PM
why do i have a feeling dat im deproving instead of improving??why is this so??i really wonder why i couldn't do it even though when i tell myself times and times again that i can leap over this stupid barrier....
after all these...i really have the thought of giving up....somehow all the talkings might have done a reverse reaction...i really feel like crying...not becuz im afraid of losing nor am i afraid of people rantings at me...its only becuz i really love it alot...too much that i really dun want to give up....i know im contradicting myself...but it just shows that deep inside my heart there is an war going on which creates chaos in my heart...
why am i emo-ing here when its my birthday?zzzz
just fuck it
after all these...i really have the thought of giving up....somehow all the talkings might have done a reverse reaction...i really feel like crying...not becuz im afraid of losing nor am i afraid of people rantings at me...its only becuz i really love it alot...too much that i really dun want to give up....i know im contradicting myself...but it just shows that deep inside my heart there is an war going on which creates chaos in my heart...
why am i emo-ing here when its my birthday?zzzz
just fuck it
